SIGNS OF WORK CRISIS

I GOT BORED AT WORK. Not physicaly but mentally drained. Like I came to my maximum tolerance. I took all the great things to stay but the more I though of it makes me want to get out and find my right calling.

Are you staying because of a stipulated contract? Like your tied both your hands to stay at the same place. And its up to you how you work on your insanity to stay put. OMG. This is the hardest thing. You can observe my exasperated words becausr I wont question it if it fulfill my requirements. There's something lacking. And my life isn't infinite, I must be careful on where I put my time because that time is my life. I wont live forever to decide that I'll stay here bec the contract say so or bec it pays a high salary. FUCK THAT. 

Some of us here are sober that they think their immortal. We're all equal when it comes to death. We're all gonna go through that phase. They spend on what appears to be happy but shallow. They allow their being to be carried away by culture instead of their own.

I'm letting you know that the most important thing isn't the short happiness that you'll get on superficial thing but the wisdom of nature or life.

Take a leap. Get to that thing that you loved most. Its hard. It will be. Let your presence make an enlightenment to someone else. 

Those who laugh harder aren't really sad inside. Here's why:

I randomly see post saying that the saddest people are those that usually laugh harder or make the most effort to make someone happy.

Well, this isn't true as much as you want it to be true. They laugh harder and have external disposition of happiness because inside them reverberates its abundance. Its hard to give laugh when in inside it deficits. You cannot give what you dont have. So next time if you notice someone eject a happy state its because they have a lot of it internally. And their happy to share it with another person whose lacking. That's simple at is it. 

2am thoughts

I can't sleep.

After a month of vacation, tomorrow came the day of my departure.

Its deep in the night but still fully awake. I was planning on taking my sleep during the whole flight and let my eyes gaze one last more on the home I'm about to vacate. 

What's ahead of me? Can't answer this yet but I'm always making myself ready when that opportunity struck me. 

Being an ofw, I am somehow infected on their delight that working abroad has been a great leverage in life. Its like to them its an achievement of some sort. I dont know, I dont feel the same way as they do. Being away got me the chance to see the whole of what I have here (In Philippines). 

Its true that the income tax here are exaggerated and I know the significance of doing this by the goverment but I still get upset with the surrounding I see. The intensity of spending behavior where shocking. Most of them purchase for the sake of external praise and pride. 

Their means of information has been depended on whats being shown on tv. They know all the things twist going on the television. You can poke and make a long conversation with ramdom people by raising showbiz fuss which they responded with great knowledge. 

Theyre fashion are well updated but deep down with their very being there are emptyness with them that is lacking. Theyre so immense on rumors and other's backyard. 

Theyre into love life's and all the sort as if its the only concern that life could offer. Their updated with no classes alerts nor suspension of whatever issues not by the concern of natural forces but more on the benefit of ceasing them out of their work duties or classes. 

They are easily being carried away by the propagandas on the tv. They seem possessed by unlimited time to what must be done at hand as if death wouldnt happen to them at all.

 

They dont want to hear unsolicited truthful comments from their relatives or parents with regards to their deeds. They take it personally and shut them immediately. They never want the feeling of being corrected. They take all the bad remarks as direct insult to them-- to their being. But failed to use it as a tool to improve them. They are too insensitive of the facts being raised to them. Thus, they resort to committing more mistakes by avoiding what has been served to them. 

Life has its own way of unraveling twist of what ought to see. Let's make use of whatever circumstances throws us. If we are being battered by insults, unwanted comments, disgraced or any type of inconvience. Lets recycle that to get the positive side out of it. 

Remember: spoiled left overs are the best compost for the plants.